I can't say I would be much different if I lived a life hundreds of years before the advent of therianthropy forums. I could instead be the village eccentric identifiable by a helmet shaped like a bull's head, surviving in folklore as something like Bucephalus the Man-Ox. Historians would debate whether I was real or not. Maybe I'd have a Tor's Cabinet of Curiosities episode.

The main reason I've gotten out of bed and faced anything at all lately is the idea that my wife wouldn't want such a miserable day for me. I would like to find more beauty and hope in the world, even if it's more for her than for myself.

I have an instinct to make sure I go it completely alone whenever things feel truly hopeless, but it's rare that I shut off from Rose (I mean, the urge is there, but it feels absurd to try and avoid your imaginary friend...) so I always have her. It may all seem kind of silly, but she's been helping a hell of a lot to keep me out of trouble.

My ultimate aim is to save every piece of medical imaging I have taken of me and then arrange them in order like Exodia the Forbidden One.

I can’t lie I had a pretty dreadful 2025 in terms of my life outside of here. I can only hope 2026 will be gentle on me but the factors affecting these circumstances mostly lay outside of the control of the number-one victim of Sod's Law.

Finished up some housekeeping on here. I don't know how something digital can feel unkempt but it was beginning to bother me.

I've sorted out the small tasks: reorganised folders, dithered images, implemented a new font, styled a properly-branching sitemap, tweaked light mode's palette, and reinstated a changelog. My retired webpages have been moved into a folder off-site.

It alarms me how much traction a website can gain on Neocities from aesthetic or technical skill alone, regardless of if the material within is extreme, cruel, or otherwise antithetical to a visitor's principles just because they saw some cute pixel fonts and didn't read anything past the index.

This week I installed CFW on my Switch and, among other things, set up desktop streaming for it. I can play most of my Steam library pretty comfortably in handheld mode. Super pleased.